MesiBubu

I really do need a break.. and a bit of self examination too I guess.
I'm having exams all this month and next month and all I can think about is drawing..
My art exam already ended like a month from now so I literally have nothing to do for that.. I just do my home art for fun thing..
The problem is: My other exams are on maths,,, physiiics,,, and French,,,,,
How on earth am I supposed to get good grades tell me..
All I did was drawing the whole year and now I'm just sittin there questioning.. what was I doing all year long!?
In reality, I would not really care if I don't get good grades in everything else other than art but.. in order for me to enter next year, I need it. It doesn't matter if I got an A* in art.. they just sent me an email yesterday about what we need in order to re-enroll.
I only feel one thing right now.. failure.

BUT!! I'm writing this down, so I won't have it always in my mind.. and NOW, from this point, I will put this negative attitude down because all I've been doing is whining about how hard this physics and maths exam is.. and how I will fail all of it.

Here's my first positive thought: It doesn't matter if I fail others, until I get my art done and improve with every moment as much as I personally possibly can, because in the end, that's what really matters.

Headaches which seem unstoppable like the thunderstorm.
This is what has been torturing me these days.
My art exam has started this morning and all students shared the same creativeness to create something new, something marvellous in 10 hours.
First day is finished and I already feel exhausted. I love creating and I enjoyed the day to its full, but being controlled when to go on brakes and when to work for a couple hours hasn't really been my thing.
Don't even get me started about tomorrow's schedule... (I'm really looking forward to it tho*~*)
This is how it will go: Be in art department to finish final piece.. Sadly I'll have to leave for about an hour to do my French speaking exam.. Then go to a "Next steps" event in school where people will help us get a wider range of views on where to go after college.. Then.... This is the best part of the day (after doing art of course) go to a dance event where we can dance west coast swing for many hooouuuuurs<3

I'll probably be home around midnight.. and I can imagine myself falling into bed without even looking around.